Showing posts with label scared. Show all posts
Showing posts with label scared. Show all posts

Saturday, January 12, 2013

bmt: zero week.

    Alright, I'm finally going to start talking about BMT.  So, zero week.  Hell week.  Worst week ever.  Whatever you wanna call it, it sucked.
    When I got to San Antonio, it was late - midnight or so maybe.  They had SF tech school ropes waiting to sign us in and throw us on a bus.  We got to in processing after a nerve-wracking bus ride through San Antonio, and were issued ABU parka and liner, and told to gran a box lunch and told to sit down and eat our sandwhich (which was fucking NASTY), and then shuffled around from place to place until they were ready to ship us off to our dorms.
    Next stop?  326 training squadron, where we were met by a horrible lady named Sgt. Miller, from a different squadron, to get us settled in for the night.  She gave us our addresses to send home, and unpacked us, yelled a lot, and made us shower and told us to get the fuck to bed.  I didn't get to bed until about 3am that night.  We woke up to confusion - Sgt. Miller had put us in our brother flight's dorm, and them in ours.  They quickly shuffled us to the correct dorm, and so we met TSgt. Lyles and TSgt Anderson - our TI's, who we came to love like family in later weeks.
    The rest of 0 week is a large blur, but I remember my saving grace being the EC's from our big sister flight.  After the TI's left for the night, they guarded the dorm all night.  They straightened up night displays, shoes, cleaned - whatever they could to take the heat off of us.  They told us it would get better, to just hang on, because it was the worst of it - and weeks later, I told my baby flight the same thing as they went through their 0 week.
    From the blur, the 2 things I remember clearly from that week were my 2 phone calls home.  The first, to give my mom my address very quickly.  I told her to let my first call go to voicemail so she could replay the address, but with every ring I was hoping more and more she wouldn't go through with it so I could hear her voice.  All my flightmates were crying and trying to talk for a second after they gave their address, so it was really hard to hold it together.  At the end of the week, we got a real phone call.  But, I was a student leader at the time, so when my whole flight messed up our homework, I was presented with a mere 5 minute phone call.  My mom kept telling me she couldn't hear me because I was breaking up, but really I was hyperventalating from not being able to breathe from crying so hard.  That was the hardest 5 minutes of my life, while I cried and begged my mom to figure out a way to come to graduation because I missed her so much (my dad only came to graduation) and the like.  That was a very emotional call.  A couple days later, they gave all the student leaders 15 minutes though, because they had to by the rules - and that call went much better.  I think what broke me originally was everyone else was all crying and shit on their 15 (some even got 30 as a reward for something), when I got 5.  Pissed me off that they thought they should be upset, hah.
    Other than all of the emotions, zero week was a lot of processing appointments - so a lot of rushing from meals to get done to make them.  We got uniforms issued, and on Saturday of that week, we took our PT assessment. Which, in TI world, means that they can make us push forever after we're assessed.  They can't before hand.  So my flight got a good, long, 30 minute beating immediately after doing our PT test - and then again once we got back to the dorms.
    They call it hell week for a reason.  It's the worst.  However, just remember:
    "They never said it would be easy, they just said it would be worth it."

Monday, September 3, 2012

BMT packing video.

Hey guys!  I just recorded a packing video for Air Force BMT of all the stuff I'm packing!  One week, HUA!


Monday, August 27, 2012

t-minus 14 days.

Wow, okay, so I kinda spaced that I had a blog for a while!  Failure on my part.

Anyways, what's new with me? Not a whole damn lot. I'm enjoying all the luxuries of being a civilian for the next two weeks, that's for sure!  A lot of crazy people are starting waking up at 04:00 hours and working out in the morning and cutting out snacking and all this crazy shit... and I just don't get it!  I'm going to eat all the oreos and junk food I can in two weeks, sleep in til noon, and sit on my ass.  When's the next time I can enjoy this?!  So, I'll just expect the crazy culture shock when I get there, because no way am I doing all that crazy stuff now!

Other than being super lazy, all the time, I have been studying quite a bit.  I have the ranks down in order, and now I want to learn them to where I can see the insignia or hear the rank and know what it is off the bat.  I have the Airman's creed down, but haven't started on the song yet.  I've been working steadily on PT, running either 1, 1.5 or 4 miles every other day.  I've been slacking on pushups, and it shows.  I really need to work on those!

Basically, I'm just chilling.  I'm finding out who my real friends are, because I've been talking to my friends from the ship group we have for September on Facebook on the daily, whereas my "close" friends from town haven't made any effort to make plans or see me.  I'm going to go see some movies with my mom in the coming weeks, and eat a faux-thanksgiving meal because I'll be in tech school for it.

Since my last post, I've had my 30 day briefing, and it wasn't much. Just filled out the form saying I've had no run in's with the law or new body modifications, and I got my sheet to fill out to get my family into Lackland for graduation, as well as my direct deposit form.  We just chatted mostly, and it was my last DEP call that day too, but we didn't do/discuss much.  I have also opened a shiny new bank account with USAA, as well as keeping my local credit union.  I was able to use USAA to link it to my credit union, so I can seamlessly and easily transfer money back and forth for free!  I'm excited, I'm using USAA for direct deposit, and once I'm in, I'm going to start planning for retirement financially early and such "responsible" things to do.

I'm not looking forward to saying goodbye so soon.  My momma is driving me down to MEPS to ship off that Monday, and we'll get some fancy coffee and make a day out of the trip, but it's going to be hard.  I've never really been away from home, I don't know how I'll deal.  I don't have many (any) friends at home really that I see frequently or am close with, so I am looking forward to meeting some of the people from our Facebook group and starting new bonds, but leaving my one close friend will be really hard.  He's my closest friend, and has been for a very long while.  He's been one of my many supporters throughout the ups and downs of the enlistment process, and has kept me strong for it all.  There's been a serious mental breakdown or two that he's carried me through, and it's going to be super hard that he's not going to be a call away in such a trying time such as BMT.  Letters will definitely be the only thing getting me through.  I remember even just at MEPS, it was so stressful and scary and new that I was calling my mom and boyfriend at the time crying and freaking out and stuff, and I was still in the state!

I guess only time will tell how I do.  But, I will never falter, and I will NEVER fail.